I fake a smile so he wont see,
Yo. today i enjoyed myself, a lot!
aka my most experienced day.
i had multiple emotions, but that's okay.
Needless to say, chinese test comfirm get F9.
I regretted ya know? if only i had studied for it.
(ya ya ya, no such thing as IF ONLY)
today dance was basically about flexibility. quite enjoyable.
after school had dance inauguration, took lotsa photos.
will upload it next time, im in no mood for pictures now.
er, i might have to rant all my fustrations again, sorry.
endless tears, i know im crazy. honestly speaking, i tot ytd was the best day of my life. i thought 010808 could happen. but, it didnt. i know maybe it was my fault. i dont have confidence in myself& im sensitive. Although weili told me abt ur reaction when XX sent you that whatever msg, i really thought that it was true. hence, i started to smile at myself, thinking of whatever shyt. till today, i realise that i was living in my fantasy dream, no doubt. im being treated as a substitute. yea, some of you might think, subs only mah. i alr had the experience before. i really feel like im "sticky note"to them. okay, maybe im copying the FTLY, i cant get any other examples. when im there, nth happens. but for quite some time, the sticky note has been attached to them (as in very sticky alr). yea, then when they found another one, they'll just "throw" me away. im srsly not trying to say that WAH, CANNOT THROW ME AWAY. no. i just feel that my life is always substituting a person. whatever, im cant deny the fact that im really really depressed. i didnt enjoy myself today, AT ALL. i never. when i was on the verge of tearing, i kept on telling myself to SMILE and be REAL HAPPY, as jasmine told me 7th month your mood cannot be too low because of smth lar. but the more i tell myself to smile, more tears dripped down. maybe a few days ltr i'll be okay, but i know, i've alr made a promise to myself. if i break it, i'll need to study for 2 hrs per day. God is my witness. & i dont think he'll be able to read this..? i wanted to tell him that there wont be a next time.. you can lie to other ppl and yourself, but you cant lie to me. i hope the both of you will be tgt :)
Complicated
Uh huh, life's like this
Uh huh, uh huh, that's the way it is
Cause life's like this
Uh huh, uh huh that's the way it is
Chill out whatcha yelling' for?
Lay back it's all been done before
And if you could only let it be
you will see
I like you the way you are
When we're drivin' in your car
and you're talking to me one on one but you've become
Somebody else round everyone else
You're watching your back like you can't relax
You're tryin' to be cool you look like a fool to me
Tell me
Why you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting like you're somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
And you fall and you crawl and you breakand you take what you get and you turn it into honesty
and promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it
no no no
You come over unannounced
dressed up like you're somethin' else
where you are and where it's at you see
you're making me
laugh out when you strike your pose
take off all your crappy clothes
you know you're not fooling anyone
when you've become
Somebody else round everyone else
Watching your back, like you can't relax
Trying to be cool you look like a fool to me
Tell me
I felt so left out in the exco. well.
& today, i have not even eat a single thing.
(look at the time now!) cool.